Well I will absolutely be enjoying my coffee in about 6 hours before I head to work but I just wanted to enter into this month RIGHT!
You know I can go on and on about how I have been single for over a year and how on X-mas Eve it would be 4 years since I first got down onto one knee and set myself up for heart break nearly a year later but you know what... fuck it. Since the end of October I have gotten to know somebody who honestly has to be one of the best girls I have ever known. Not only is she extremely beautiful she has a banging personality. It is retardedly weird on how she almost everything I have ever dreamed in finding... and I am not complaining. She knows how to make somebody feel important and darn right wanted and it is good to feel that way once in a while. Now there are some challenges and a tiny distance but it's worth it. She says I make her feel all flustered and that I make her heart flutter and I hope it is all true because with every smile I get from her, I know that I am making her day and that makes mine! :)
Every conversation we have had and will had I take in open arms because I could honestly talk to her every damn day and it would still mean the same to me. She really is just that awesome to me... almost to the point where I wanna run outside screaming it!! Haha but really... I have been nothing but smiles and happy filled because of her. Now I am not the same person I used to be... I have grown up and realized being too niice will break you and I have been pushed to my limits by certain people but when I am around her I honestly feel I can be a truly laid back nice (with a side of cockiness) guy and never get burned. Now we both have been through a lot and her a little more recent but I honestly think about her and what will happen all the time. Lately... I dunno, I kinda been wanting to just openly say shes mine bitches so move out the way! *Now you know what I have been thinking about* Lol But that will happen when she is ready as well. Now I have told myself the last year that I don't want anything official or too deep because of the pain and misguidance I have endured. But to be honest...if I had the choice, I'd probably call her mine NOW and make it official. I just feel that good around her that I just wanna say fuck what I was telling myself the last year! lmfao
Now on the flip side, I hope I can and always make her feel like she is in heaven and safe around me. She needs to know that she can tell or talk to me about anything and I would never judge. I'd listen and provide 100% support. Whether its a silly joke or a very deep secret, I am always here for you! :)
So Imma end this little heart rant on the wishes to the future and how excited I am to see how this year ends and 2012 begins! Good night all!
Chewy Out!
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